“And as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.”
Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar
Snow Day
Casey G I look outside through the window by my bedside, tying up the curtain to welcome in the sun. I scour the expanse and realize there is no sun, at least not to be detected by the naked eye. It must be hiding, yes certainly so, behind the swallowing opaqueness of the white sky.…
Keep readingC*ntry Goth Playlist
C*ntry Goth (aka rockabilly, psycho billy, folk punk, whatever else you wanna throw in) playlist When you say country, this is where my head goes (YouTube playlist available here).
Keep readingSaying Goodbye to Spotify
Casey G Spotify Wrapped has arrived once again, but what has historically been an exciting review of the year’s musical ingestion has been a conflicting experience this time around. I am currently in the midst of removing myself as a user from Spotify – a grueling process that has taken longer than anticipated – and…
Keep readingThe Ancient and Secret Esoteric Wisdom
Mat Gilson The esoteric wisdom that the cabalistic forces of patriarchy and capitalism have been keeping from you is that you can be transgender. The little worms in the dirt spreading their slime around know about being trangender and they think it’s awesome. The slimy little worms that get pulled to the surface during a…
Keep readingWorking, Taking Each Day at a Time
Casey G One day, it will not be tolerable, all of these expressions and euphemisms and pretenses. For now, I abide but we will soon reject one another. The words don’t fit well in my mouth, they fall out like broken teeth hard and uncomfortable on the floor. Blood everywhere, I’m scrambling around for the…
Keep readingFree Handmade Stickers
Femme Fatalism Presents:Free stickers!It’s me, Mat, and I am not just mediocre at writing, I am exceptionally mediocre also at drawing things. What I am not mediocre at is caring about the rights of transgender people and also enjoying Twin Peaks. In that spirit I’m hand drawing these stickers and offering to send one to…
Keep readingAbscess
Casey G I feel sick and it is nothing, my stomach is settled, my heart appropriately faint. I compress and pulsate anyway, just to stimulate something. There is nothing, it is nothing. I look at the mirror in hopes that I am bleeding from my eye sockets, praying that blood will be pouring from some…
Keep reading“Bearista,” the Disease of Consumerism
Casey Gilfillan Hey everyone, I’ve come to do a little hearty shaming today. It’s overdue, it’s more than warranted, and just baffling that anyone needs to speak the sentiments that I am about to – the obsession with acute consumerist trends, such as the infamous Starbucks “Bearista” cup, is freak behavior. It’s not normal and…
Keep readingMaine: The Way Woke Should Be
Mat Gilson Hi gay! Woke is back all across the country, especially in New England. Election day yielded two major wins in Maine, as the Republican referendum to gut access to absentee ballot voting failed, and a red flag gun law passed in the wake of the Lewiston mass shooting two years ago. In this…
Keep readingHope Not, Fear Not
Casey Gilfillan Bring me to the fire, I am the freest when I feel it in my chest.My hands, tools of feast and purchase, become the space in search of an answer,There is none to be found. Stupid fingers, vying for the objectivity of meaning,The scourge of purpose. Instead, there is just forward, more, and…
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